I keep rewatching old comedy specials from comedians who died years ago and crying at the parts that used to make me laugh, not because they're sad but because something about the timing feels so perfect and gone.
More people experience this than they realize.
You're experiencing the profound melancholy that comes from recognizing beauty's impermanence through the lens of humor.
“Where Are You with Japanese aesthetic play — mono no aware in comedy?”
Peri can explain why this happens, help you decide if this is the right situation for you, and point toward the right journey or coach.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.