How do I carry the times things went badly wrong at work?

You can talk almost anyone down, and still you carry the ones you couldn't. Those stay with you in a way no report or record will ever hold, because the paperwork counts outcomes and you are carrying something heavier: the weight of what could not be saved. That you still carry them means you cared. That is not a wound to be ashamed of. Here is a hard truth worth sitting with: you were one person in a situation with many forces, and you did not control all of them. You brought your skill and your care to a moment that was already in motion before you arrived. Some things cannot be talked down. Carrying the ones that went wrong as if they were all yours is a debt you did not actually owe. You will not forget them, and you should not try. But you can change how you hold them. Find one person you trust, another who does this work, and say one of those stories out loud. What is carried alone grows heavy in the dark. What is spoken gets lighter, not because it stops mattering, but because you stop carrying it by yourself.