How do I carry the weight of holding people's fate in my judgment?

You can command any courtroom now. And the mastery has left you carrying something heavy: real people's fates rest on your judgment, and there is no putting that down. That weariness is not a weakness. It is the honest weight of a responsibility most people never have to feel. The burden is real, but you were never meant to bear it as if you were infallible. You judge with care, within the law, on the evidence before you. That is all anyone can do, and it is what justice actually asks of you. Carrying it well does not mean carrying it perfectly. It means carrying it honestly. Find one place to set the weight down outside the work: a walk, a person you trust, a practice that is only yours. You cannot pour good judgment from a depleted self. Tending your own steadiness is not selfish. It is part of how you keep judging fairly.