How do I handle being judged on renewals I can't control?

Your number is renewals, but the things that decide them — the product, the price, a customer's budget, a change of leadership — mostly sit outside your hands. Carrying the anxiety of churn you did not cause is a heavy, unfair load. You are being held responsible for outcomes you can influence but never fully command. The way through is to separate your effort from the outcome. You cannot control whether a customer renews. You can control whether you showed up, understood their needs, and gave them your best. Judge yourself on the part that is actually yours. When a customer leaves for reasons you could not touch, let that be their story and their circumstances, not a mark against your worth. It helps to write down, honestly, what you did well on an account even when it churns. Keep that record so the anxiety cannot rewrite history and blame you for everything. Do the work you can be proud of, name plainly what was never in your power, and let the rest go. You are accountable for your effort. You are not the sole author of other people's decisions.