How do I stop feeling numb about reducing everything to a number?

You can value almost anything and defend it. Somewhere along the way, though, the habit of reducing whole companies, with their people and years and struggle, into a single figure has left you numb. That numbness is not a character flaw. It is what happens when you do delicate work at high volume for a long time. The number is a tool, not a lie, but it is only ever a thin slice of the truth. Remembering that a company is people and work behind the figure is not weakness; it is what keeps your judgment human and sharp. The day it all becomes just digits is the day you start missing what the digits leave out. Now and then, look up from the model. Learn one real story behind a company you value. Let yourself feel the weight of what the number stands for. You do not have to carry every one, but refusing to feel any of it hollows you out. Keep the skill, and keep the part of you that knows it is more than a number.