What do I do when I don't understand my own business numbers?

Being scared of your own numbers is more common than you think, and it does not mean you are bad at this. It means no one ever sat you down and showed you what the numbers are actually saying. That is a gap in teaching, not a flaw in you. Your numbers are not a judge. They are a plain report of what happened, money in and money out. Once you see them that way, the fear starts to shrink. You do not need to master accounting. You need to understand three things: what you brought in, what you spent, and what is left. That is most of it. Start tonight with one month. Write down what came in and what went out, in your own words, on one page. Do not aim for perfect. Aim for honest. The moment you can see it clearly, the fear has far less to hold onto, because you are no longer looking away.