How do I explain suicide loss grief to people who haven't experienced it?

This is the loneliness within the loneliness, isn't it? Mirabai knew something about this — how love and devotion can coexist with bewilderment, how the heart examined can feel utterly foreign to those around you. You might start by saying: this grief has a particular shape. It's not just loss. It's loss tangled with questions that may never have answers, with a kind of responsibility you didn't ask for, with the strange burden of their final choice sitting alongside your love for them. Some people will understand immediately. Others won't. And that's partly because suicide loss doesn't fit neatly into how we're taught to grieve. There's no simple narrative. You might say: "I'm grieving someone I loved, and I'm also grieving what I didn't understand, what I couldn't prevent, what I'll never fully know." You don't owe anyone a complete explanation. You owe yourself permission to grieve exactly as you need to — with all its contradictions. Mirabai sang to Krishna even in her anguish. She didn't simplify her devotion to make others comfortable. Neither do you have to simplify your grief. Start with whoever has shown they can sit with complexity. That's your circle.