I see the whole system's broken. Why can't I change it?

You have spent decades in the fields and in the meetings. You know which policies will fail before anyone announces them. You know which practices get praised and which ones quietly ruin a farm. This knowledge sits in you like a weight, because you see clearly and move so little. Here is the confusion: you have mistaken seeing for commanding. A man can watch a storm build for thirty years and still not control when it breaks. The system is the storm. Your clarity about it was never the same thing as power over it. That mistake has cost you years of needless weight. What is actually yours: the grower in front of you this week. The team beside you, who trust your judgment more than any policy memo. The one practice you can change in the next conversation. Build there, with them. The system moves, if it ever moves, grower by grower — not because you wished it faster.