You sabotage yourself just before reaching a money goal

Come, let us bring this pattern into the light where reason can see it. The sabotage is obeying a belief, not an accident — every time, at the same point, is too consistent for chance; a part of you acts on a hidden rule, that you are not allowed to arrive, and the rug does not pull itself, so the work is not more discipline but finding the belief, since a rule that acts in the dark loses its power once seen. Trace where the belief that you may not arrive was learned — no one is born forbidden to succeed; it came from a home where having was dangerous or disloyal, a message that money would corrupt you or was not for people like you, a guilt at surpassing those you love; examine it as I examined every belief handed to me, asking not is it familiar but is it true, and it reveals itself as an inheritance, not a law. And give yourself permission to arrive, and watch the moment you''d bolt — decide in words, as a reasoned conclusion, that you are allowed to reach and keep the goal, then learn the exact moment the sabotage-urge rises and, when it comes, do nothing, only name it as the old rule firing and stay. Where does the rug tend to get pulled, just before you arrive?