The short answer
Seeing impact and feeling meaning are two different things. Meaning comes from acting in line with who you are, not just from good outcomes. When the work matches your values from the inside, the felt sense follows. Right now the work is real, but the connection to your self is missing.
You can watch someone's life get better and still feel nothing personal in it. That is not ingratitude and it is not a flaw. Research on authenticity points to something clear: the felt sense of meaning shows up when what you do lines up with who you are on the inside — your actual values, not just your job description. Impact lands in the world. Meaning lands in you. Those are different destinations, and right now yours are not connecting.
Marcus Aurelius put it plainly: 'What is thy profession? to be good.' He did not say your profession is to produce results, or to help people, or to be useful. He pointed at something internal — being good, not just doing good. The difference matters. Doing good is an action you can perform while feeling hollow. Being good is an expression of who you are. The meaning he describes — 'Have I done anything charitably? then am I benefited by it' — comes from the act being an expression of self, not just a service delivered.
This week, pick one moment from your work where you felt even a flicker of something real — not satisfaction at the outcome, but something that felt like you. Write one sentence about what was present in that moment that is usually absent. You are not looking for a grand answer. You are looking for a thread. Pull on it.