I got into academia because I believed in chasing truth, and most of my week is spent on politics, rankings, and grant math. The faculty meetings are about turf, not ideas. I keep asking myself where the thing I fell in love with went, and whether it was ever really here.
More people experience this than they realize.
You came for the pursuit of truth and found mostly politics and metrics.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.