I'm steady when I'm assisting, handing over instruments, watching someone else's hands do the work. But the thought of being the one holding the scalpel, with everyone looking to me, makes me go cold. I don't know if I'll ever feel ready to lead the operation myself.
More people experience this than they realize.
You're fine assisting, but being the one who operates terrifies you.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.