I wanted this command for years, and I never pictured the quiet that came with it. The crew keeps a respectful distance and there's no equal on board to talk it through with. Out here the isolation is heavier than I imagined, and I've got no one to hand any of it to.
More people experience this than they realize.
The isolation of command at sea is heavier than you expected, with no one to share the weight.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.