They trained me on the policy and I can recite when force is justified and when it is not. But out on the street, in the moment, I do not trust myself to know which is which. I keep second-guessing whether I would freeze when it counts or go too far, and neither answer sits easy.
More people experience this than they realize.
You do not yet trust your own judgment on when force is justified.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.