When I finally stop and sit down, I don't feel relief, I feel like I'm disappearing. I've built so much of myself around work that resting doesn't feel like recovery, it feels like losing who I am. So I get up and find something to do, because stopping feels a little like ceasing to exist.
More people experience this than they realize.
You've tied yourself so tightly to work that rest feels like loss.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.