I used to live for the moment I pulled the trigger on a trade, my own read, my own risk. Now I run the desk, and I carry the whole team's P&L through calls other people make. When a position goes bad I can't fix it myself, I can only watch and answer for it.
More people experience this than they realize.
You're now responsible for risk you no longer get to control yourself.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.