I can hold any door calmly now — read a situation, keep my voice level, turn someone away without it turning into a scene. But there's a weight that comes with it. Part of my mind is always scanning for the worst thing that could walk through. I carry that watchfulness everywhere, even off the clock.
More people experience this than they realize.
You can control any entrance calmly, but you carry the constant weight of watching for the worst.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.