I read the signals and the whole system now without thinking, the way you know your own street in the dark. What I can't put down is knowing how many lives ride behind me every run. One lapse, one wrong call, and it's not paperwork, it's families. I've done this for years and the weight has never once gotten lighter.
More people experience this than they realize.
You've mastered the system, but the weight of every life you carry never lifts.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.