I'm on call this week, and the dread sits with me the whole time. I keep bracing for the 3am page — the whole system down, everyone watching, and me half-awake trying to fix something I'm not sure I even can. The phone by the bed feels like a bomb waiting to go off. I can't really rest knowing it might ring.
More people experience this than they realize.
Being on call means dreading a 3am outage you might not be able to fix.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.