I've spent years learning to notice everything, every exit, every face that doesn't fit. It kept people safe, and it also kept me from ever fully relaxing, even off the clock. I'm slowly learning that I can stay watchful when it counts without living my whole life braced for impact.
More people experience this than they realize.
You're learning to stay watchful when it matters without living braced all the time.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.