The assay came back negative again, another six months of work into a dead end. I have made peace with failure being the job; that is not the hard part anymore. The hard part is staying hopeful enough to keep going while staying honest enough not to see a result in the data that my tired heart wants to be there.
More people experience this than they realize.
You've accepted constant failure, but keeping faith without fooling yourself about the data is hard.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.