I can defuse almost anyone now, take their anger and turn it into calm without flinching. I've gotten so good at swallowing it that I don't even feel it in the moment anymore. But it comes out somewhere, in the tightness I carry home, in how numb I've gone, and I've stopped noticing what all that swallowing costs me.
More people experience this than they realize.
You've gotten so good at absorbing hostility that you no longer notice the toll.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.