I've been published, and I'm proud of that, but it doesn't come close to paying my bills. I do the day job, then write in the cracks of time that are left, and the gap between what I'm called to do and what actually keeps the lights on wears on me. I love this work, and loving it isn't enough to live on.
More people experience this than they realize.
You're published but can't make a living, and the gap between calling and paycheck wears you down.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.