I represent my country's position in a room, even when part of me doesn't believe in it. I say the words, I hold the line, and I keep my private doubts locked away. Duty and my own conscience sit at the same table, and they don't always agree.
More people experience this than they realize.
Serving your country's interests when they clash with your own conscience is a quiet, constant strain.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.