I'm three weeks off orientation and every time the pager goes off my stomach drops. I keep picturing the call I'm not ready for, the one where someone's heart stops and it's just me kneeling on the floor. Everyone acts like I've got this, but inside I'm terrified I'll freeze at the exact moment a person's life is in my hands.
More people experience this than they realize.
You are new, and the fear of freezing when a life depends on you sits with you every shift.
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.