I am a Black woman doctor and I watch white patients visibly relax when my white colleague walks in to confirm everything I just told them, and I smile and pretend it doesn't gut me every single time.
More people experience this than they realize.
You are experiencing the deep wound of having your professional competence constantly questioned due to racial bias, while being expected to maintain composure.
“Where Are You with Healthcare equity and structural racism in medicine?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.