I look at old photos of myself when I was thinner and feel like that person was better, more disciplined, more worthy of love.
More people experience this than they realize.
You've conflated physical size with personal value, making your former body a symbol of lost virtue rather than recognizing it as one moment in your ongoing story.
“Where Are You with Food relationship and disordered eating?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.