I've been masking my autism so well for so long that I don't remember what my actual personality is underneath all the learned behaviors.
More people experience this than they realize.
Long-term masking can create a disconnection from one's authentic self as learned neurotypical behaviors become indistinguishable from genuine personality.
“Where Are You with Neurodiversity & Learning Differences?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.