I've been putting off calling my estranged brother for six years because I'm waiting for the right moment but I'm starting to think the right moment doesn't exist.
More people experience this than they realize.
You're using the concept of perfect timing as a shield against the vulnerability of imperfect action.
“Where Are You with Chronos vs. Kairos — clock time vs. the right moment?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.