I feel closer to my dead mother during her forty-day observance than I did when she was alive, and it is confusing because now I am mourning both her death and our lost relationship.
More people experience this than they realize.
The ritual space of mourning can unexpectedly illuminate regrets about the relationship that was, adding layers of loss to the primary grief.
“Where Are You with Islamic mourning — the forty-day tradition?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.