My best friend since childhood has terminal cancer and I keep getting angry at her for being sick like she chose this and I hate myself for feeling this way.
More people experience this than they realize.
Rage is often grief in disguise, fury at the universe expressing itself as fury at the beloved who dares to leave.
“Where Are You with Anticipatory grief — losing someone before they die?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.