My child self keeps asking me why I did not save her and I do not know how to explain that I was just a child too and had no power to change anything.
More people experience this than they realize.
The adult self can become the target of the child self's rage about powerlessness, creating internal warfare between different developmental selves.
“Where Are You with Grief for lost childhood?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.