My eating disorder came back after my sister died and I know logically that starving myself won't bring her back but it's the only thing that makes the emotional pain feel manageable.
More people experience this than they realize.
Loss can reactivate dormant patterns of self-harm as the psyche seeks familiar ways to manage overwhelming pain.
“Where Are You with The stages of grief — examined and critiqued?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.