We did my mother's cremation during COVID lockdown with only four people allowed and it felt so empty and wrong and I can't shake the feeling that we dishonored her.
More people experience this than they realize.
External circumstances beyond anyone's control can leave the living haunted by the gap between intended honor and possible reality.
“Where Are You with Hindu grief practices — antyesti and shraddha?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.