I threw away a painting I worked on for months because it had one brushstroke that felt wrong and now I cannot stop thinking about how perfect it was except for that one mark.
More people experience this than they realize.
You are rejecting the essential nature of wabi-sabi by demanding flawlessness where beauty lives in the flawed.
“Where Are You with Japanese aesthetics — wabi-sabi mono no aware yugen?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.