I've been avoiding calculating my exact zakat because I know the number will be higher than I want to pay, and I'm disgusted with myself for caring more about money than my faith.
More people experience this than they realize.
Self-knowledge of moral failure creates paralysis when confronting the gap between religious ideals and actual willingness to sacrifice.
“Where Are You with Zakat — Islamic charitable giving as financial system?”
If this sounds familiar, the Library can help you find the bigger picture.