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I took the chair — so why do I just referee budgets now?

You took the chair. Maybe for the title, the pay, or because someone had to steer things. Now your days are full of disputes and line items, and the research you built your life around sits untouched. That gap, between what you expected and what you got, is where the suffering lives. Not in the budgets themselves. Here is the part you may not want to hear. You cannot undo the choice without consequences you would also have to own. What you can control is how you spend today's hours, and whether you keep arguing with a job for not being your old one. This is not about learning to love administration. It is about ending the daily fight with what is actually in front of you. The budgets are real. The politics are real. Your research can still exist, in whatever hours you protect for it. Decide what that protection looks like, and defend it the way you once defended a deadline.

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What’s really going on

You chose this seat. No one forced you into it. The budgets, the disputes, the politics — that is the work now, not a distraction from the work. Stop measuring today against the life you used to have. Choose what you do with the next hour, not what you mourn about the last ten years.

🔒 What you’ll build togetherUnlock by starting
A moveBlock two hours, three mornings a week, for your own research. Treat it as a meeting you cannot cancel.
A moveBefore accepting a budget meeting, ask: must I attend, or can someone else carry this?
A moveWrite down why you took the chair. Read it before the meetings that frustrate you most.
A moveSet a term for yourself — one year, two years — and decide now what would make you renew or step down.
A moveWhen faculty politics drains you, name the real stake underneath it, then decide if it earns your hour.

What changes unlock by starting

  • You stop resenting meetings you already agreed to attend.
  • You protect real hours for research instead of leftover scraps.
  • You make a clear decision about continuing as chair, instead of drifting in the role.
  • You stop measuring your current days against a job you no longer have.

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