Why haven't I felt like a teacher in years?
You lift the whole school. You train the teachers, fix the programs, solve problems before most people finish coffee. And somewhere in these years, you stopped teaching. That is the complaint, stated plainly. Here is the part you will not want to hear: no one stole this from you. You traded it. Every hour spent running another teacher's classroom was an hour not spent in your own. You agreed to that trade, again and again, because it felt useful, even noble. It was still a trade. The years you gave are gone. Mourning them changes nothing. What remains in your power is simple and smaller than you want it to be: what you do with this week. Not your legacy. This week.
You did not lose your teaching self. You spent it, hour by hour, on everyone else's classroom. That was a choice, made daily, not a theft done to you. You can choose differently this week: teach one lesson yourself, to real students, with no one else running it for you.
What changes unlock by starting
- A standing weekly hour where you are the one teaching, not overseeing the teaching of others.
- A real, recent answer to 'when did I last teach' — not 'years ago.'
- One task reclaimed that puts you back in a room with students or material directly.
- A clear test of whether the teacher in you is gone, or just waiting for room to work.