You feel you're always performing your life instead of living it

This is a subtle and real loss, worth seeing clearly. The watching eye has moved inside you — you live now with an audience in your head, imagining how each moment would look, so you never simply are in your life but half-watch yourself live it; the eye once on the screen has moved within and stands between you and your direct experience. The performed moment is not the lived one — experiencing something for how it will look means part of you is outside it, arranging and watching, and the moment lived toward an audience is thinned by the watching, while the richest experiences are had for themselves alone. So live some moments for no one but yourself — have experiences you will not share or capture, purely yours, and notice how much more fully you inhabit them when no eye needs satisfying, until the internal audience quiets. The truest living is often that which is for no one but you. Where do you most feel you're performing rather than living?