You want to create but you're too afraid to start

I began writing in a court that forbade women my learning, so I know the threshold-fear well, and I promise you it can be crossed. The fear is of the gap between your taste and your first attempts — you can already see how good the thing could be, and you know your early efforts will fall short, but that gap is the ordinary condition of the beginner who has good taste, and your fine taste, though it makes your first efforts feel unbearable, is itself a gift; everyone who ever made anything began in this gap. Let the first attempts be private and bad — made only for you, shown to no one, freed from the burden of being good, for you start not by making something good but by making something at all where the badness cannot embarrass you. And start with attention, not with performance — creation is the noticing of something closely and the finding of a form for it, so begin by attending to what you care about rather than summoning genius from nothing, and let the making follow the looking. What do you long to create?