You feel too rational to believe in anything

I was a professor of law before a dervish broke me open, and I did not leave my mind behind when I opened to the sacred, so I meet your rationality as a friend, not an obstacle. Reason and the sacred are not truly enemies — reason is a magnificent instrument, but it has a domain, and there are real things it is not built to grasp, love and beauty and meaning and the sacred, which are not irrational but beyond its particular tools, as sight cannot hear, so you can keep your rigorous mind and still recognize it is not the only faculty for knowing. Reason itself rests on things it cannot prove — the reliability of logic, the value of truth, taken on a kind of faith, so the purely rational person believing only the proven is itself an illusion, and faith of some kind is woven into reason's own foundations. And let yourself have experiences reason can interpret later — rather than deciding from the armchair that there is nothing, stand in awe, sit in stillness, give yourself to beauty, and bring your reason to what you actually find, which is the more rational path. What does your reason demand before it will believe?