You feel guilty for doubting

Let me lift this particular weight from you, for the guilt you carry about doubting is a burden you were given, not one you deserve. Doubt is not a sin but an honest movement of the mind — to question, to feel uncertainty, is simply the mind being honest, refusing to profess a certainty it does not feel, and this honesty is a virtue, not a vice, so the shame you feel is misplaced, born of a teaching that doubt is wickedness when it is really integrity. A faith that forbids doubt is afraid of the truth — a confident faith welcomes questions, trusting that truth can withstand examination, and only a fragile or false faith fears the doubt that might expose it, so the prohibition that made you feel guilty is a sign of weakness in what you were taught, not sin in you. And let doubt lead you toward truth rather than fearing it — doubt followed honestly is one of the great engines of finding what is real, pushing you past the inherited and assumed toward what actually holds, so take it up without guilt as your ally in seeking truth. Set down the shame, and doubt freely. What are you doubting, and what taught you it was a sin?