You're seeking but everything feels like a dead end

Weary seeker, come rest a moment — the dead ends you keep hitting may not mean what you fear they mean. The dead ends may be clearing away what is not yours — a dead end is not only a failure but a discovery, the finding-out that this is not the way, real knowledge that clears the ground, so the seeker who has tried many paths and found them wanting has not wasted the trying but learned what does not fit on the way toward what does. You may be seeking with the grasping mind rather than the open heart — the sacred is not usually found by the mind's effortful grasping, which is why the mental paths keep dead-ending, but through the receptive heart that opens rather than grabs, so try seeking with less figuring-out and more presence. And what you seek may find you when you stop chasing so hard — the very intensity of your search may keep the sought-for thing away, as gripping too hard scares off what would come to a quiet hand, so rest from the frantic chase and become available, and let what you seek arrive in the quiet. Rule out the false, open the heart, ease the chase. What have you been seeking, and how?